You said pain
Was cool. Cool was
What I said.
Your bottles of prozac
Happy pills you called them
Multi-purpose the more the merrier
Whatever works. Only
They never really
Worked did they.
Why couldn’t you say?
Why couldn’t I say?

You said you were so happy.

Now you’re here and I’m here
I’m choked for words
Afraid to touch
You, afraid to speak too
Loudly, afraid to move
Around you tubes are everywhere
This isn’t you.
This isn’t you.

And I want to get out of
There, I want to look
Away from you
But somehow I can’t take
My eyes off you
I’m scared.
But somehow I can’t tell
You that can I.
Do you know I’m there?
Do you know

All the thoughts and memories
They rush through me I can’t take
Seeing you I can’t take
Not seeing you. I want to cry
But there’s no one I can cry to now.


Thought you didn’t mean
Anything
More to me; I guess
I was wrong.