ever since pros ended last wednesday, LIFE HAS BEEN GREAT! i've been sleeping 12 hours a day, watching online tv, driving, shopping, shopping online, not working out, and regaining appreciation and love for all things dear and edible! life is perfect!

as you can tell by the frequency of my posts, i've really been filling my days with meaningful activities. i've been to candy empire twice in the past half week, and am totally hooked on their belgian waffle biscuit thingies. they're like the most perfect biscuit ever- really buttery and really sugary. my sister and i finish 1 box in under 24 hours, counting sleeping time and time spent out of the house! i DEFINITELY have to buy like 10 the next time i go to candy empire. plus, i'm loving their sugared almonds! especially the small pink ones, which are the yummiest! oh and whenever you go there you MUST check to see if they have the strawberry sundae lifesavers, because i swear they are the best lifesavers ever! ohoh and the jelly bean factory jelly beans- the best gourmet jelly beans you'll ever taste! it must be like the most truthful advertisement on a box ever.

apart from raiding candy empire, i'm glad to report that i'm... back into the swing of shopping! i do not actually have the desire (or cash) to buy any huge amount of things, but that doesn't mean i can't reacquaint myself with orchard road, does it? in fact, i came to a profound realisation whilst on the escalator down takashimaya yesterday with mark. i realised that while boys were at home wasting their precious childhood on computer games which aren't even real, we girls were out fending for ourselves in the dangerous terrains of shopping centres and supermarkets and orchard road underpasses. i remember the many times my parents would take me out on weekends and leave me to roam free in paragon or centrepoint at the tender age of 5 or 6. and that was how i developed my sense of direction. and my astute eye for details! AND my keen sense of economics! yes, these are the vital lessons which our formal education system has clearly failed in teaching us.

also, in belated news, i have discovered the absolute hawtness of justin chambers. actually, i can't believe that i actually said 'hawtness', because that's like so trent. but whatever; ever since coaching my kiddies on homosexual marriage laws this afternoon, i've acquired a newfound appreciation for gays and lesbians. who knew of the long and difficult road they've had to brave on their quest to be recognised as human beings with the same rights as the rest of us? anyway, so a few weeks ago i like had this dream which featured (you'll never guess!) just me and our favourite greys' anatomy star. in fact, he was in love with me. i kid you not! i thought i had died and gone to heaven. (note to mark: if you are reading this, remember everything i told you about 'celebrity infatuation', and how it can positively reinforce actual relationships?) so, for the benefit of those of you think you know who i'm talking about but aren't sure:

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indeed, i must admit that i have sunk to new depths with watching fan vids on youtube. but a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do. bimbo, out! ;D

today i was at raffles city and happened to walk past the donut factory queue. it spanned across 3 shops and 2 walkways! i think the wait must be at least 3-4 hours long, considering they don't pre-bake the donuts. THESE PEOPLE ARE MAD! sure, the donuts are fluffy and pretty and all, but 'tis such a waste of life! i cannot understand why anybody would go to so much trouble for mere donuts, except that perhaps part of the draw is actually the queue itself. singaporeans seem to have a culture of wanting to queue whenever they see other people in line. i think it's called "kiasuism", ie the fear of losing out. dammit, i wish someone would queue for donuts for me :(

some things have been troubling me as of late, one of which involves a past which i thought i had finally moved on from. amnesia is a real shitty thing, especially when the person who can remember all the happiness and sadness is the person who doesn't want to, whilst the one who does want to can't. i hate being brought back into those memories, the accident, the period of uncertainty and anxiety, and then everything that followed. it is tiring to remember, and upsetting. perhaps i know what it is the right thing to do, the kind thing, but i don't have it in me to help or care anymore, not right now. i just can't do it. that is part of my life which i spent so long letting go of, and i don't think that i can do it twice. i hope this doesn't make me a bad person.

anyway so today i had to drive whilst in a bad state, and as a result misjudged the distance of oncoming cars at a junction and had to brake at the last minute. then i think i turned onto a kerb once, but that was because the corner was a sharp one and there were cars parallel parked on the other side. plus i forgot to indicate a few times, but everybody knows not indicating can actually be a way of life. heh =p

so overall, the mood is not too jazzy.