the reason i haven't posted for a while is because i've been terribly sick.

first, it started with a sore throat. then, i got a 39 degree fever (believe me, the headache from that was a real bitch) and lost my voice. next, i got a cough and nose malfunction. which means that my nose refused to behave like a normal nose, stopped smelling altogether, and required a tissue to be physically attached to it full-time. the cough also aggravated the ulcer in my mouth, which mushroomed to engulf almost one quarter of my mouth. and just last night, i developed conjunctivitis, and have had sore, red eyes, and yellow pus spilling, no, pouring, out of it ever since. this morning i couldn't even open them cos they were caked with a layer of hardened yellow pus. it is the most disgusting thing ever.

it's like i've become a walking germ culture overnight. i knew that my body would object to going back to school, but this, this is too much! it's like the whole world is conspiring to prevent me from enjoying the festivities (read: eating festive junk food).

anyway there's not much to do but sit around and whine, so whine i shall. i am pretty much resigned to the fact that i am going to be in this gross, disgusting state for the next week or so, and i won't even be surprised if tomorrow i wake up with some other sick development, like maybe a nose bleed or some other ailment.

there, i said it. so all i have to do now is sit back and wait for it to happen.

oh, before i forget, my new year resolutions for 2005:

1. i will meditate and practice yoga every night, even if i'm dead tired and it's like 3 a.m. (IT'S MY OWN BLOODY FAULT FOR STARTING WORK SO LATE)

2. i will be less vulgar- i will apologise everytime i use the F-word, and use shit/asshole/bloody/bitch sparingly.

3. i will not snack on junk food after dinner!

4. i will go to the gym 3 times a week.

5. i will stop being paranoid about small matters and worrying compulsively about things that i can't change.

6. i will stop buying useless stuff which i don't need so that i don't have to feel guilty afterwards.

7. i will remember to take vitamin C everyday

8. i will do ALL my math tutorials (except the challenging questions and the optional sections).

9. i will remember to put my school badge and hair ties in the SAME PLACE everyday so that i don't have to frantically search for them in the morning.

10. i will not be a grouch in the morning.

i know i'm being a bit unrealistic, but hey, i'm sick. so if i look back at this and discover that i haven't kept to a single one of them, at least i have an excuse. haha.