you know how it is when you know you want to do something, but don't know exactly what particular type of that something you want to do?

i'll give you an example- just now i knew that i felt like playing the piano, so i went and sat in front of the keys and ran through a few pieces. but after an hour, i still didn't feel satisfied. like as if i had just started playing and was still searching for repertoire. anyway, suddenly it struck me- my fingers were itching to play chopin's nocturne in E. and i just knew that it had to be chopin's nocturne in E and nothing else that i wanted to play.

well that's the example. the rest of the story is that i realised that i couldn't find the book with chopin's nocturne in E, and that's why i have been deprived of that sense of satisfaction that should come after piano practice.

also, i want to buy these things from the nike store, but i'm not sure if the shoes will actually look stupid when worn out and i feel guilty splurging on the yoga mat:


they look like ballet shoes but have a totally normal, walkable sole. the ones they sell in sg are bronze-ish. i like how they look girly enough to wear with skirts and jeans and stuff.

flexible gym shoes made of leather. i think they look pretty posh.

the yoga/pilates mat i've been lusting over for ever and ever!!!

if only i was made of cash :(