tomorrow is CNY eve! which means you know what! it means more bak kwa and kueh lapis and pineapple tarts! mmmmm deliciouz! anyway i dunno whether im looking forward to reunion dinner in the evening not, because i always end up having to eat the disgustingfied pig's intestine soup and my cousins crack the raw EGG into the steamboat pot like right at the start of dinner. so i have no choice but to ingest egg for dinner. and i HATE egg. i hate it i hate it i hate it. it's ok if it's with other things, like pastries and ice cream and cakes and stuff, but egg by itself is just GROSS. nobody should eat egg. plus it has high cholestrol. which means i will live longer because im not subjected my arteries to deposits by high density licoproteins. yes; the advantages of learning bio!

the only downside about CNY is that your face suffers. cos firstly you get fatter and secondly you get more pimples. it's like today you eat bak kwa and tomorrow you'll see it on your face. i can already count the number of stupid little spotty protrusions all over my face. which is bad because i will have an acne-fied face when i bai-nian, and you always want to minimise factors which might make aunties/uncles be less generous with the angpaos! :(

am in a rather chatty and happy mood now in fact- just got back from a charismatic praise and worship session at my church. i think that since i've started attending these and being more spiritual, i've not had a major depressive episode and i've been on the whole a lot more happy. it's like my whole life has changed suddenly and i don't even know what i did for that to happen, but it just feels really good. it's like i've found one of the missing parts i've been searching for for so long, you know? i don't want to sound preachy or hoity toity evangelistic, but this experience has been a major turning point for me, and i can't help going on and on about it. i guess everything happens for a reason, and you just have to trust that the reason will be revealed to you someday. yesterday during the 2nd reading of mass, i found the answer that i was looking for:

"your faith should not depend on human philosophy, but on the power of God". Corinthians 2:5

for all its moral inconsistencies and injustice, maybe the world isn't such a bad place after all, yeah? ;)