life has been hectic since my last post. on friday i spent the entire day sleeping and shitting speeches cos of the SRs on saturday, which turned out to be an almost complete waste of time. somehow, between reading what was on the paper and saying it out, the kids managed to almost always paraphrase everything so that it turned out totally different. there are no words to describe the frustration. the only consolation is that my first speaker got best speaker twice as proposition, so it means that the speech i wrote was definitely kickass. HAHA, take that!

and then yesterday, i spent the afternoon writing speeches for the JGs. it reminded me of primary school dictation where the teacher reads out sentences and you're supposed to listen carefully and write them down word for word. this is definitely a test of my patience. on the upside though, i have cultivated a very impenetrable zen-ness which has been very useful the past few days. in the face of irritation, i now blink and take deep breaths and remain calm. no more swearing and showing middle fingers and stomping off. i think i might even be becoming a nicer person on the whole, that is, if we excuse the daily dose of bitching and healthy amounts of mean thoughts that i have. we all need some things to keep us sane, after all.

oh and funnily, now that i have to be a responsible working adult and all that, i seem to have like these bouts of restlessness, during which i get sudden mental aberrations and feel the need to run. if i was superstitious i would take it as a sign that the world is coming to an end. on monday i actually was proactive about taking a healthy evening run and found it surprisingly liberating. i definitely need to work out more. i even found this new park in my estate, and stopped to swing on the monkey bars for a while. (of course i made sure there was nobody looking). the only other person at the park was this old lady who was looking really lonely and dejected and spent the whole time looking at the trees. i felt kinda sad for her, especially since it hit me that one day i could very well be like her.

i am very sure i will NOT be one of those women who age gracefully. i will probably become mean and hateful and suicidal and depressed and that will not bode well for the people around me. plus, i realised that if i persist in wanting to never have kids, i won't even have anybody to take care for me and make sure i'm well fed and alive all the time. which would be horrible because who wants to be one of those old folks who die in a cruddy apartment and nobody realises till a few months later when there's a putrid smell of rotting carcass. and so, i have decided that if i'm going to have kids, i'm going to make sure that at least one of them turns out to be a genius. from birth, i will make sure that she is immersed in an environment that stimulates her mentally, and will read to her every night. and possibly get her those head phone things which teach you to speak different languages when you're asleep, although both mark and aud have said that's a horribly mean thing to do to a kid. which might be true but then again it's not everyday that you get to raise a kid is it? plus she will thank me for it when she's older. of course if it happens to be a HE then everything will be thrown off course, although you can count on me having another ambitious plan to nurture a star athlete...

lastly! driving lessons are progressing well. today i managed to do an almost perfect U-turn. it would have been perfect if not for this asshole cyclist who cut in front of me just as i was straightening after the turn. then my instructor started nagging at me for not having checked for him earlier, which was when i stepped on the accelerator really hard and she jerked forward a bit. HAHA. so maybe my transformation into a nicer person is still at its early stages, but whatever. oh and i managed to pass final theory despite cramming only the night before, thanks to some ever reliable retards setting the test. basically as long as your answers are all about checking blind spots and not accelerating when people try to overtake you, you're safe.

teehee.