I AM GOING TO BE A DOCTOR!!!

i can't believe it. a part of me feels insanely elated, while a part of me knows i am screwed. since applying i have managed to psycho myself into believing that blood is not an issue, but the truth is that i'm petrified of bleeding people plus there's the whole thing about how i'm a hygeine freak. but i suppose we will have to cross those bridges when we get to them. i just hope the first patient i get doesn't puke all over me. or worse, die =x =x what have i gotten myself into, i wonder.