a strange phenomena i have come to notice is how being around cadavers makes you feel hungry. today my group had a particularly smelly body (probably in its early stages of rotting) and still, i wasn't the only one walking about rubbing my tummy in eager anticipation of lunch. in between formalin's assualt on the senses, my highly trained nose was able to associate the smell of rotting cadaver to roast char siew, and immediately, i kept thinking of char siew. since there is no way in hell that fingering rotting body parts can possibly stimulate anyone's palate, maybe this is just a very clever trick which the human mind uses to block out unpleasant experiences. clearly, our subconscious is more powerful than we know.

anyway, for the past 2 weeks i have had vegetarian food after anatomy prac, but today my hunger caught me off guard and i ordered a turkey sandwhich before i could ponder the ramifications. then when i flipped open the bread and saw the meat staring at me, i had a marginal urge to puke. but i soldiered on anyway because the bread was perfectly toasted and there are few things i love more than bread, except maybe cheesecake. in fact the thought of eating bread for breakfast makes me almost happy to jump out of bed in the morning, especially the really fat and doughy kind with lots and lots of crust. so anyway, this resumption of normal appetite is the first good reason to stop dreading fridays, yay.

apart from that, i think i am seeing the beginnings of a routine in which school is now a daily feature of. in previous years i spent much time in Denial, then Fighting Evil and subsequently Refusing To Give In. and then invariably i would fail a string of things and feel like a moron and be put through much lecturing before finally Submitting To The Dark Side. this time, it's like i've fast forwarded all the drama and just accepted the road ahead without a fight. school has barely opened 3 weeks and i am already studying almost everyday. so i guess i am now officially a freak, or a bigger freak than i already was. i can only hope that this phase of loserdom is a compulsory requirement for attaining maturity :P

haha, the irony.