today i was at raffles city and happened to walk past the donut factory queue. it spanned across 3 shops and 2 walkways! i think the wait must be at least 3-4 hours long, considering they don't pre-bake the donuts. THESE PEOPLE ARE MAD! sure, the donuts are fluffy and pretty and all, but 'tis such a waste of life! i cannot understand why anybody would go to so much trouble for mere donuts, except that perhaps part of the draw is actually the queue itself. singaporeans seem to have a culture of wanting to queue whenever they see other people in line. i think it's called "kiasuism", ie the fear of losing out. dammit, i wish someone would queue for donuts for me :(

some things have been troubling me as of late, one of which involves a past which i thought i had finally moved on from. amnesia is a real shitty thing, especially when the person who can remember all the happiness and sadness is the person who doesn't want to, whilst the one who does want to can't. i hate being brought back into those memories, the accident, the period of uncertainty and anxiety, and then everything that followed. it is tiring to remember, and upsetting. perhaps i know what it is the right thing to do, the kind thing, but i don't have it in me to help or care anymore, not right now. i just can't do it. that is part of my life which i spent so long letting go of, and i don't think that i can do it twice. i hope this doesn't make me a bad person.

anyway so today i had to drive whilst in a bad state, and as a result misjudged the distance of oncoming cars at a junction and had to brake at the last minute. then i think i turned onto a kerb once, but that was because the corner was a sharp one and there were cars parallel parked on the other side. plus i forgot to indicate a few times, but everybody knows not indicating can actually be a way of life. heh =p

so overall, the mood is not too jazzy.