I JUST HAD THE WEIRDEST DREAM EVER AND I'M LIKE SO FREAKED OUT!

i dreamt that i woke up in a hospital room and my mom told me that i just had twins. TWINS, as in BABIES. and not just ONE baby, but TWO!!!! OMGGGGG, what a nightmare. it's unclear if i like gave birth to them or i adopted them, but i remember checking to see if there was tenderness where my c-section scar should have been, and there was none. did the dream me actually NATURALLY birth TWO BABIES???? no way. either that or i must have been on a badass epidural that knocked me clean out.

anyway, then someone took me to the nursery and i went in to take out my babies (cos i was like a doc in the obs ward already or something) and, to my horror, one was a white baby and the other was a black baby. at which point i totally freaked out, and started saying things like 'why must this happen to me?? i've NEVER been with an indian in my life!!!!' not that there is anything wrong with indians btw.

the next thing i knew, i was rolling the babies' cots back to my room, whereupon i noticed that the babies were so tiny! and they were connected to some kinda ventilator, which was like a tube and an airbag that spontaneously inflated and deflated itself. like auto intubation! WTF???

so when i reached my room, i suddenly decided that i wanted to remove the tubes from them to see if they could breathe by themselves. which i did. and then i went back to sleep. and when i next awoke, apparently my mom had transferred them to a bigger playpen like thing, and they were (literally) bouncing up and down and juggling rubber balls and solving rubic's cubes. and the indian baby had grown a moustache and a beard.

HOW FREAKY IS THAT????????????????

i'm trying to decipher how the hell i came up with such a dream, and can think of a few things:

yesterday i was thinking of 'adopting' a kid, for one of those third world country child sponsorship programmes where you donate money every month for the child's daily expenses and school. i was planning on getting a kid from the Dominican Republic because her photo was really adorable, and my sis called me a racist for choosing her over the ethiopian and bangladeshi kids. which is why i dreamt about having a black baby i guess, as retribution. but i'm not racist! really i'm not! anyone who knows me will tell you that!

and then i guess the other portions of my dream were from me bitching today about angelina jolie's Adopt Africa campaign, the discussion on C-section rates during cofm tut, and my inability to solve the last side of this damn rubic's cube. seriously, it's like just sitting on my desk now in front of me and laughing at me. EVEN MY FICTIONAL BABY IS LAUGHING AT ME! shit! am i such a loser??????