Last night, I didn't sleep at all. And when I mean at all, I mean zero, zilch, nothing. I went to bed at 4.19am after spending a few hours saying "Fuck, fuck, fuck" everytime I flipped to a new set of the neverending ID notes. Unfortunately, by 6 am I was still unable to sleep, so I got out of bed and attempted to read though some notes. Nothing went in. Then I attempted some MCQs, and got everything wrong (refer to the Loser's Guide below) and then decided to take a shower and get ready for school. So I was dressed by like 7, went to bed again, and tried everything to make myself go to sleep. This included praying, reciting the names of fungi, counting, drinking hot drinks, telling myself over and over that "I am damn friggin tired, I am damn friggin tired", trying to clear my mind, visualizing green pastures etc etc. Nothing worked.

In fact, I tired myself out from the whole effort of -trying- to sleep =x And when I did finally manage to get into a bit of a light sleep, I was awoken 10 minutes later because I had to leave for school. I was totally stoned as I was making my double shot instant coffee. Physically I was dying of fatigue, and yet my damn brain kept spinning with all kinds of random useless thoughts, like all the permutations of how I could rearrange the furniture in my room to make space for new stuff. It was so bizzare- to be mentally awake and yet not mentally alert. I could barely process getting my things together to leave the house.

So I guess out of all the anxiety attacks I've been through before exams, this has definitely got to take the cake. Although how the hell I managed to work myself into such a state over a friggin microB CA is a mystery. I was definitely feeling unprepared for it, but it's not like that's new or anything. Truly, I must be such a freak. Hurrhurrr.

Anyway, now that the CAs are over (in all senses of the word) I hope that at least all this insomnia nonsense will come to an end. I'm looking forward to spending a day or 2 just sitting around and rotting my lazy ass off at home. That, and of course shopping :D